{"id":17,"date":"2013-01-22T12:21:12","date_gmt":"2013-01-22T18:21:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.phototropia.org\/?p=17"},"modified":"2013-01-22T12:21:12","modified_gmt":"2013-01-22T18:21:12","slug":"an-open-letter-to-a-friend","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/?p=17","title":{"rendered":"An Open Letter to a Friend"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I may seem to be an asshole when you try to do something funny and don&#8217;t get the reaction you intended. Please try to understand the background.<\/p>\n<p>When I&#8217;m alone, often the only thing that occupies my mind is my death &#8212; the circumstances, how I&#8217;d do it, what I need to do to prepare for it, and my often high sense of urgency and desperation, and frustration that I can&#8217;t get what I want without hurting people I care about. I am frustrated that I must continue to suffer by remaining alive, to provide some kind of comfort to people I don&#8217;t even see every day due to our society&#8217;s immature ideas about death and suffering.<\/p>\n<p>So when you appear and do something zany, can you understand why sometimes I cannot smile?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I may seem to be an asshole when you try to do something funny and don&#8217;t get the reaction you intended. Please try to understand the background. When I&#8217;m alone, often the only thing that occupies my mind is my death &#8212; the circumstances, how I&#8217;d do it, what I need to do to prepare [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[6,3,7,8],"class_list":["post-17","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","tag-death","tag-depression","tag-humor","tag-suicide"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=17"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=17"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=17"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/phototropia.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=17"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}